It's not the first days being here on a boring land. Getting back to my hometown might be the cause of hate, fear and depress; everything here is so different from what I've expected: no one really cares about your mood and what you're gonna do; they care about themselves. I've been learning English for more than ten years, still can't understand, say, 70 percent of what my friends are talking about, not even the main idea. Gosh, I should say, that even among the most prestigious people in Taiwan like I am should pay lots of efforts to adapt to the whole new environment, which is a shame. I can feel my friends slowed down their tone when I tried to say something, yes, embarrassing.You know the feeling of not being able to express yourself in an effective way? Or cannot fill your stomach with foods you like? That's awful! Imagine that, it's the daily routine an international students in the United States usually have.
It's too late to "fail myself": I am to blame for not being mentally strong enough to face the challenges on the road, Spending three years preparing to study in the US and quit now? That's ridiculous! Even if I get back to the place I am familiar with ( i.e. NTU), no one's gonna accomadate me, especially those who wrote the recommendation letters for me. We always assume that once we suffer, we have the final success, which is not always true, quite the opposite. Live wise, always think carefully before hitting the road.
Maybe I just need to take some rest.
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