Working long hours and still get nothing done? I have a bad feeling about this when I realize two weeks from now I must give a research proposal speech in front of my group.
Thursdays of this quarter are especially tiring when I have to take two consecutive courses, a seminar at around 4 pm, and a group meeting ending at 7 pm; so there's not much time to do my research.
The lab is still under construction, which means I cannot do anything except doing paper and pencil brainstorming or paper reading. My research project is not something I'm familiar with: I've never done any molecular biology experiment in the past (e.g. DNA cloning), therefore "imagination" makes a big part of my everyday life.
What makes studying in a different country depressing is that you're not only studying, but "living". Learning how to live better, or at least not to make yourself sick or hungry, takes a lot of time, especially when you come from a country with convenience stores and great services everywhere, making a deep contrast to what you're suffering with. After the bombardment of lectures I don't really understand, exhausted, I went back to my apartment. When I was sitting in front of the desk, putting a spoon of rice into my mouse, I felt defeated -- I sleep, eat, get homesick, sleep, and eat, totally forget why I'm here. I'm supposed to learn new things. Cheer up man.
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